Category Archives: Quotes

“…keep ajar the door that leads into madness…”~ Christopher Morley

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I have made posts before where I mention the connection between “madness” being hand in hand with mood disorders, and artistic talents.

Granted, not everyone who is Bipolar has talents like that… many cannot hold a tune when it comes to singing, cannot play musical instruments, cannot write music or poetry… I am sure you get my point here.

In my case, I was lucky enough to have talent when it comes to singing and writing. I do not have an amazing voice, but I can hold a tune. I also loved music… passionately!! I would spend hours upon hours memorizing songs to sing… singing into my Karaoke machine… writing new songs… I was a total homebody, often in my own fantasy world, writing music and songs hour after hour, day after day. It was my happy place.

I tend to write more when I am mentally ‘unwell’. I am not sure why that happens to be the case, but it is. I can totally see the pattern. My ‘muses’ tend to be in a love affair with my ‘madness’. Am I out of my mind, in a corner, drooling on myself?? Or in 4 day old clothes, standing on a busy corner, screaming to anyone who looks at me about Gods love, and the imminent ‘end of the world’? No. Fortunately, that is not my “type” of madness.

Mine is subtle. Mine can be mute. Mine can be woven intricately with my core beliefs, my personal reality. Taunting me. Causing me to question my most personal thoughts, tainting my positivity with some sort of doubt. My madness plays a psychological chess mind fuck with ‘me’. But I am privy to its ways. I am not always in control of it, but I am Master over it, and I will always win… no matter the war it inflicts upon me, no matter what it does to TRY and destroy me… it won’t. It cannot.

I will ALWAYS win. ♥

©bipolarmuse 2015

Deepak Chopra Quote

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Whenever I make a choice, I will ask myself two questions: “What are the consequences of this choice that I’m making?” and “Will this choice bring fulfillment and happiness to me and also to those who are affected by this choice?”~Deepak Chopra

One of the horrible “perks” (insert sarcasm) of Bipolar Disorder AND Borderline Personality Disorder, is impulse. Serious and horrible impulsive acts that destroy and leave a wake of destruction behind them. So this quote is something we should all take to heart. We all need to seriously learn to ‘pause’ and think before making any big decision… actually, big and small decisions, but more important, the big ones. How many of you have destroyed your life by making decisions without thinking them through?? I would bet we all have done this on some level. I know I certainly have… and these decisions hurt not only me, but the ones I love most. With a heavy heart, I have to learn from these mistakes and stop looking back at that closed door.

Please, my friends, ALWAYS take time to think long and hard instead of doing something impulsive. I learned the hard way and have so many regrets… I wish I could just push ‘rewind’ and start over with this new-found 20/20 vision.

But I can’t… so I move forward slowly with one foot in front of the other.

Bipolar Is Awesome!

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Picture courtesy of Pinterest

LOL, I found this and found it funny and a tad bit true. I hate being bipolar at times and at other times, it absolutely rocks. Am I crazy for saying so? Nah… we all have mood swings we go through, mental disorders or not. We all share the same fluctuations in moods, attitudes, behaviors, and well… you get my drift.

I guess we ALL can be bipolar to a degree. The difference? Well, the difference is when these symptoms completely become out of control and interfere with your life. When being depressed causes you to stay in bed day in and day out, that is a problem. When you become so manic you start five different tasks, personal or at work, and cannot complete a single task… that is a problem. This is when some interference is needed to help control these crazy fluctuations in moods.

I can remember sitting in my therapists office… indian style on the couch, clutching a pillow, and rocking back and forth because I could not sit still to save my life. My teeth even chattered. It was like being on a drug. Interference was needed. Then came the massive dose of depekote. I went from speed walking and chattering teeth… reading five books at once… and planning to take over the world to drooling on myself and unable to hardly get off my chair at work. Literally… I drooled on myself, down the side of my mouth, to my shirt, on to my pants….

yeah… I hate being bipolar, it is AWESOME.

Emotional Intelligence… Practice It!

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I love emotional intelligence! When we practice this, we remove all power that we allow others to have over us. I know it is difficult to learn and practice, trust me… this one is hard for me too… but once we are accountable for all of our emotions, we can have better control over them. Nobody “makes” us feel anything… our emotions belong to each and every one of us, they are not in the hands of others. Take back control and choose how you will feel…

Moving On Affirmation

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Ahhhh, the art of letting go and moving on… it is a difficult thing to do and often causes the heartache in our lives.

I remember, not long ago, I held desperately to my past. I held on to the mistakes as well as to the good times that I felt I had thrown away. While difficult to turn around, face forward, and press on… it must be done. I had started this process on my own, but it really kicked into full gear when love re-entered my life. So many things are healing for us… I had forgotten the healing power of love.

Find love and add it to your life. It does not have to be love of another person, but love. I think the greatest love of all is love of self. I work on this daily.

Positive Thinking

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Positive thinking can bring so much into our lives. I know that life is not “that easy”, and this advice is “easier said than done”, but take time to reflect positively, to bask in the sunlight instead of hiding under the dark clouds. Try positivity and see the changes that come about. It is not an overnight transformation, but it IS a transformation.

Happiness ~ Buddha Quote

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I never believed in “mind over matter”, but I have to say that I have learned alot in the last 2 years about being mindful, and feeding yourself positive affirmations. Your attitude comes to be by what you think. If you are always negative, that will be what you attract, but on the other hand, if you are positive and present yourself with a smile, happiness will be found in you. No, it is not an overnight thing. We don’t become negative quickly, but rather, over a period of time. The same is to be said about happiness. It takes time to ingrain that habit into yourself.

Be kind to yourselves, practice positivity, and don’t give up.

Love ~~ Rumi Quote

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“In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems. You dance inside my chest where no-one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that sight becomes this art.”
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To be in love… Rumi says it so beautifully.

He is my muse, the flutter in my chest, the beat of my heart, the writings from my pen.

Love has very healing powers. While I know that my disorders will always reside with me, when in love, their presence becomes less and less. He has healed my heart in so many indescribable ways. He in incredible and not only wants me to flourish, but he tells me to ‘forgive’ myself for past pains, he wants me to thrive. To be happier than I can ever imagine.

Not long ago, I didn’t believe in “love”. I believed I was capable of loving but that was the extent of what love was for me. With him, love is abundant… continuously growing and healing the scars on my heart, mind, and soul. He not only kissed away the pains, but also encourages me to heal and forgive.

I am working on forgiveness constantly, it does not come easily.

With love, I heal.

With his love… I heal, thrive, and grow.

Recovery From Manic Depression ~ Patty Duke Quote

My recovery from manic depression has been an evolution, not a sudden miracle. – PATTY DUKE

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When we suffer from mood disorders such as manic depression (aka Bipolar disorder) we want instant results from the hell in our brains. We want it NOW because the hell we live in is brutal to mind and body. Not to mention the high risk of suicide, but also the damage it does to us physically. We are at higher risks for many health ailments (high blood pressure being one), and have a shortened life span.

“Heart disease was the leading cause of death for each group.  After statistical adjustments were made for gender, race, education and marital  status, the greatest differences in cause of death between the two groups were seen in suicide, cancer, accidents, liver disease, and septicemia.” Psych Central

 In recent studies, those with chronic mental health issues (like Bipolar, Schizophrenia, depression, and anxiety) have reduced life span by approximately 6 years, permitting that the individual doesn’t take their own life.

Everything takes time whether  it is healing from physical pain, emotional pain, or practicing coping skills. It certainly does not happen over night.

So keep up the good fight my friends, and know that this life is like an adventure… it will take time to recover from Bipolar disorder, but it is worth the ride when you come out of the darkness.

Mary Anne Radmacher Quote

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Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.

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This is a wise statement to live by. Life gets tough…we all have our own personal battles that we fight each and every day… much that takes courage. Sometimes we lose sight of what that courage looks like…or we compartmentalize it not realizing the full extent of what courage is. Courage is many things but we usually think of something big when we hear the word…like someone running into a burning building to help someone else. That is courage.

BUT… courage is also silent…it is fighting through each day. We all know that each day comes with its own battles and triumphs…some may seem small and meaningless…but they are all valuable… they can all be lessons we need to learn in life.

So when life seems to pull you down and you feel defeated… remind yourself that you will try to do it again tomorrow… and feel the full impact of that statement.

Yes, courage is stepping up to the plate to take another swing at it…the more we do it, the better we will become. ♥

Be Alive!! ~ Howard Thurman Quote

Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” ~Howard Thurman quotes

Beautifully said! How many of us get to truly do what they love…whether it be in the work place, hobbies, volunteer work…  or day to day activities.

We shouldn’t ask what the world needs of us but what we need to do to be ALIVE… because to truly feel alive brings along great potential for the change that we need to see in ourselves, the world around us, and not to mention the fact that others will be touched by your energy and be compelled to bask in its warmth. It will bring about change in itself. To be alive is to thrive.

I don’t simply want to exist, I want to feel the energy of this life force, I want to feel charged with life…to thrive. I have learned to do this… especially as of late. I feel more alive now than I ever have, and others can see the difference. They see the difference in my smile, my composure, my infectious happiness, the stars that shine in my eyes… they feel the change in me.

Work hard to be alive my friends. We have this life for a short while… isn’t it worth living and thriving??

Bipolar Quote ~ Kay Redfield Jamison ~

“Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it, an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide.” ~ Kay Redfield Jamison

What I despise about Manic-depression (Bipolar disorder) is the way it distorts every part of who you are. I cannot count on my hands how many times people have told me “you seem so happy” when I have a raging storm inside my head. Gratefully that storm has passed but I do not underestimate the power it holds.

It holds me hostage without any way to pay a ransom. It invades my mind, my heart, and makes me lose all logic.

I know that those of you who live with a mood disorder… you know exactly what I mean.

Depression steals every good emotion and leaves you with the bad… and you get to the point where your mind attempts to destroy you and everything you have fought for… you believe you are invisable.

And then its best friend mania kicks in, and yes, it feels like a drug… feels amazing. The need for sleep vanishes, you become more daring, become a social butterfly… the world fits in the palm of my hand… it revolves around me.

Then it stumbles, it is faulty, and the downward slide into excruciating depression is in motion.

The vicious cycle… the one I have broken… it may rear its ugly head from time to time but it no longer controls me… I am not at its mercy.

Stupid Bipolar… you almost got me… now I am winning.