This past month I have been blessed by having my little ones here with me! I have had all of my children here and have been enjoying them immensely. My oldest daughter has really been a wonderful big sis and takes the little ones here and there to take them for ice cream, happy meals, swimming, and sleep overs… lol… they have loved it!
If you have followed along, you remember that my little ones are moving to Germany later next month, (Another Twist In Life), and will be gone for the next three years. This absolutely breaks my heart. I do know that this will be a wonderful opportunity for them, and I am reminding myself constantly of the positives for the little ones, myself and my older children (i.e. Future trips to Germany and seeing other countries we would not otherwise see).
On Monday, July first, I fly my little ones home to Texas and then board a returning flight home just six hours after handing them back over into their Dads care. The tears are already coming to me and I am preparing for the swing that will no doubt hit me.
In the meantime, we are enjoying every second of our “summer” together. I cannot begin to explain how truly wonderful it has been to have them home here with me. All the cuddles, kisses, moments of braiding my little girls pigtails to talking with my youngest son about why Pluto is no longer considered a planet. Every moment is accounted for in my mind. I want to memorize the feel of their hugs… the sweet “I love you’s” uttered… I want every moment etched into my heart.
As I should have, I spoke to my doctor about the difficulty of letting them go. She reminded me that being mentally healthy is the best gift I can give them, and that one day, they will know and understand the depth of my love and selfless acts on their behalf.
I am building an action plan for the difficulties that will arise with this move… and I will happily share that plan…. not today, but soon.
I have 3 days left with them… here’s to making every second count.