This Past Month…



This past month I have been blessed by having my little ones here with me! I have had all of my children here and have been enjoying them immensely. My oldest daughter has really been a wonderful big sis and takes the little ones here and there to take them for ice cream, happy meals, swimming, and sleep overs… lol… they have loved it!

If you have followed along, you remember that my little ones are moving to Germany later next month, (Another Twist In Life), and will be gone for the next three years. This absolutely breaks my heart. I do know that this will be a wonderful opportunity for them, and I am reminding myself constantly of the positives for the little ones, myself and my older children (i.e. Future trips to Germany and seeing other countries we would not otherwise see).

On Monday, July first, I fly my little ones home to Texas and then board a returning flight home  just six hours after handing them back over into their Dads care. The tears are already coming to me and I am preparing for the swing that will no doubt hit me.

In the meantime, we are enjoying every second of our “summer” together. I cannot begin to explain how truly wonderful it has been  to have them home here with me. All the cuddles, kisses, moments of braiding my little girls pigtails to talking with my youngest son about why Pluto is no longer considered a planet. Every moment is accounted for in my mind. I want to memorize the feel of their hugs… the sweet “I love you’s” uttered… I want every moment etched into my heart.

As I should have, I spoke to my doctor about the difficulty of letting them go. She reminded me that being mentally healthy is the best gift I can give them, and that one day, they will know and understand the depth of my love and selfless acts on their behalf.

I am building an action plan for the difficulties that will arise with this move… and I will happily share that plan…. not today, but soon.

I have 3 days left with them… here’s to making every second count.

Blogging Help


Since I began blogging with wordpress, I have had great luck with building followers and following others. At one time, I was insanely busy writing posts and reading my followers posts and I had a great following with my followers “liking” or commenting on my posts.

This last year has taken a toll on bipolarmuse. I haven’t been writing poetry and posting nearly close to what I use to do. I would love a new look and a revamp of my blog. I understand that this will take time and perhaps a little money out of pocket to purchase a theme instead of using the free ones provided from wordpress.

Do any of you have any advice on how I can rebuild my followers and encourage them to read and either “like” or comment on my posts. I do understand that my blog may not be everyones cup of tea, but I know that I can increase followers and participation from them because I once had that.

Do any of you have any suggestions on how I can go about doing this?

I appreciate any advice that you send my way…♥

p.s. Thank you to all my followers who have always been a great support! I have several of you who are faithful followers and I love that so much.  🙂

Ah Snap. Daft Punk. Pharrell Williams. Get Lucky. Lets Dance!

Pharrell takes it back! I use to love this dude… circa ’02, ’03.

He rocks this… makes (even) me want to to get up and move (anyone who has seen that KNOWS what a feat that is).

We’re up all night to get lucky~

Mental Illness and Gun Control

With all of the shootings at schools, the movie theater, the malls… the government wants to deny those with mental illnesses to have a gun. Why aren’t they concerned with the real problem… treating mental illnesses.

It is absurd to think that everyone who commits a crime with a gun is suffering from mental illness… some people are just plain “bad”. Personally, I believe that if the government deny’s fire arms to those with mental disorders, then these people with homicidal tendencies will just find another way to carry out the acts. This could result in knives being used, bombs constructed, poisons, etc. I think they are trying to solve the problem in the wrong way. We must get a handle on the mental health crisis in our nation. Insurances don’t want to pay out for mental health services, Psychiatrists see you for ten minutes and then just writes a script, the services available are a joke. I was on a year long list for counseling services. The man (James Oliver Hubert) who shot  and killed twenty one people in a McDonalds in 1984 reached out for help before committing the crime. He called to make an appointment at a mental health clinic but they didn’t call him back fast enough to make that appointment. In fact, they called back the day he committed the crime but he never received that call because he was already out the door to follow through with his plan. Had they called back sooner, perhaps he would have never done that horrendous act.

Mental health care is a serious issue and needs to be addressed… more so than gun control. In fact, one of the most hideous homicidal acts in a school was in 1927. (Bath School Disaster.) A man used a bomb, not a fire arm. 45 people total were killed, 38 were children. This just shows that there are other methods that people will use… especially if denied owning guns. And truly, if someone is banned from getting  a gun, they can always buy one off the streets.

Lets work on the root of the problem, not just use a band-aid. If  we address the mental health issues and put programs in place to help those with issues, we would have less of a reason to order gun control.