Many Are Strong In the Broken Places

“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong in the broken places.” Ernest Hemingway

This is a beautiful strong statement that rings validity. Think of it this way… broken bones in your body heal pretty darn quickly… the legs being the slowest because they are weight bearing. Within a certain amount of time (I think 1 year, maybe less), a broken bone is completely healed and is in actuality stronger where it was broken. (Please correct me if I am incorrect).

Isn’t that a testament to who we are as humans?? When we feel broken and shattered, in time… the strength becomes more than it had ever been. The will and determination ignites with a fierce passion. The hard part is that we want instant gratification instead of waiting for that healing and building process to take place.

Have faith my friends… we heal. Maybe slowly at first, but with diligence and perseverance we can do it! I believe in the power of the human spirit!!

© bipolarmuse 2012

A Rebound Day

A rebound day… from an excruciating pain.

A moment to breathe without,

the shaking of my chest.

A moment to relish in the beauty

of dry eyes and steady breath.

A beautiful note left,

with prayers, hope, and love.

A moment to forgive myself,

accept what cannot be undone…

Move forward, embrace myself with Love.

I stepped out in the beauty of the sun,

Heard the chirping of birds, Saw mother nature…

In her glorious gifts of flowers and trees.

Praised my Creator… for the possibility

of each one of my dreams.

Praised my Creator for another day,

to walk in beauty, and loving grace.

Today is a miracle, and tomorrow…

I will walk into a blessed day.

© bipolarmuse 2012

** As many of you know, yesterday was a brutal day. I literally cried from sun up to sun down. Completely unexpected. Tomorrow will be a glorious day, of love and beauty. I fly to see 2 pieces of me and I look forward to every single second of each day that I am with them. I look forward to their loving playful spirits and I will be embraced by their beautiful light, love, and energy. They are part of the light during my darkest days.**

Thank you for all the comments and concern yesterday. I truly was moved and appreciative to each and every one of you.

Love and Light ♥

Mood Swing Quote for Monday!!

“I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between.”
Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Wow. Today has been a seriously overwhelming day. I went from happy (or the best version of it I can find) the last couple weeks to falling flat on my face. Crying from the moment I awoke… and still at this moment.

This, my friends, is Bipolar. Ugly, vile, shattering, not a discerning reason for the swing.

I will pick myself up again, I always do.

Someday the tears will sting less, the sorrow dwindle. I would rather it be sooner than later… Please.  🙂

© bipolarmuse 2012

Today

So close, So soon.

Today

One of those days.

The tears flow freely,

I feel like I could forget to breathe.

But just two more days and I will be with two parts of my heart and soul,

My two beautiful babies.

I long to embrace them…

Kiss them from head to toe.

Remind them I am there at all times,

in their heart of hearts and soul of souls.

That even when I can’t be seen,

I share with them the sun, stars…

and the glorious moon beam.

That they are felt and loved in every inch of me.

And one day soon,

So very close, each day, I will be.

© bipolarmuse 2012

On With My Award Duties…

These awesome bloggers awarded me with several awards!! Makes me ecstatic to be shown so much love.  🙂

Novice Journal – 7×7 Link Award

Lara: On The Weigh Down – The versatile blogger award

Seasons Change, and Change,  and Change – The versatile blogger award

It’s Just One Aspect – The versatile blogger award

Now, since there are so many rules that come with these… I will break a few. LOL. I am sorry I must rebel, but I will do my best.  🙂

The Versatile Blogger Award has the following rules:

Post a picture of the award.

Thank the award giver
Share 7 random facts about yourself
Nominate 15 other bloggers about this and tell the so

Random things about muah… not an easy task. LOL
1. I use to be a workout fanatic
2. I would like to be a workout fanatic again
3. I love the color red and color my hair, of coarse, red.
4. I have a love for pop music… LOL… don’t hate
5. I like Hookahs
6. I like collecting flasks… LOL… but have lost all that I have collected. Gotta start again.
7. I have no clue about the different styles of poetry, I just write.

My 15 nominee’s:

1. Warrior Poet Wisdom – Such inspiration and insight.

2. Mortal Hearts with Immortal Souls – Very inspirational and full of positivity.

3. Verse Not Prose – Love the poetry.

4. Vampire Weather – Unique … and a muse to me.

5. Aspire, Motivate, Succeed! – The title says it all.

6. arjun1097 Revelation – Draws me in, love the poetry

7. Picnic with ants – an inspiration to me.

8. As the Pendulum Swings – I can relate so very much.

9. Ben Naga – Great poetry.

10. LSCOTT POETRY – Beautiful.

11. Stronghold (Bluesander) – Beautiful poetry I very much relate to.

12. Art Epiphany – Absolutely love the poetry.

13. Cheaper Than Therapy – A new blog I just discovered. Inspirational.

14. thepoeticgoblin – Poetry I can relate to very much.

15. Miss Mental Health – Mental health is something I can VERY much relate to. Love the rantings. 🙂

7×7 Link Award

I think I am gonna go nuts following all these rules… I will give it my best shot.

Here are the steps. All 50 3 of them: I am keeping this from the last blogger because it is hilariously true.

  1. Write some random fact about yourself. (Posting “I am a blogger” does NOT count.)
  2. List 7 of your posts that you think deserve to be read. (And apparently they’re categorized.)
  3. Nominate 7 other bloggers – which I do not think I have it in me to do so at this time. I adore so many blogs. Please forgive me for this rule breaking.  😦

Fact: Do not laugh – I love The Vampire Diaries and find Damon to be the most hilarious, antagonistic jerk, but he is my most favorite character in the show. He is such a jack arse and I love it. I hear he gets nicer later… but I am hoping not too nice. I think I will get the books. LOL

Time to link up to some of my favorite posts!

Most Popular: Mindfulness for Sunday

Most Controversial: Bruised – About my sons abuse and the hell and pain it put me through. I cry as I explain this… so I won’t say more about it. Just read if you like.

Most Helpful: Being Mindful

Most Underrated: What do you want from me?? – About my ex’s suicide.

Most Surprisingly Successful: A Letter To Mom – About my Mommy (yes, I am an adult but she will always be mommy). 🙂

Most Beautiful: To Memorize Them – About my beautiful, amazing children. Tears well in my eyes. They are my everything.

Most Pride Worthy: The Pendulum Swings – about my disorder, how it brings me down, yet I continue to get back up.

Hmmmm, Spam??

So I was reading on another blog, Running Naked With Scissors,  how some peoples comments (legitimate comments) were going to the spam section. I decided to check mine out and was upset that several bloggers, whom I recognize, were in my spam box! How in the world is that happening??

Just wanted to get the message out there because apparently it is happening to several bloggers.

Very frustrating indeed.

Check your spam peeps… hopefully it is just a glitch… it makes me mad nonetheless.

Mindfulness For Sunday

“If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.” ~ Dalai Lama

This quote truly needs to be taken by heart. How many times have we offered love, compassion, and kindness to friends and loved ones, even at times to strangers in need… offering hope, reminding them that the events they are hurting from will become easier.

Yet we do not take the time to do so for ourselves.

For myself personally, I am my worst enemy. It was brought to my attention that I still retain much guilt over the pain of my past. Past mistakes that, because I was not fully in control of my emotions, has caused me terrible grief. A mourning if you would. A hurting from the pain I have caused to others as well. I continue to inflict this pain upon myself and keep the wounds open, not allowing full healing to take place.

Friends, this love and compassion, yes it must be extended to others. It gives a great feeling within to do so… brings a peace and an enlightenment. Yet, we must also water our own souls with this same loving kindness and compassion. We must forgive ourselves. How that is done, I am not sure. I do believe acceptance is the key, and a lesson I am learning the hard way.

I have hurt myself the most by my past. Others have already moved forward and accepted it, but perhaps never forgetting, the terrible pain I have caused. I must move forward and do the same. I must love me. In doing so, I will open my heart and learn to fully love others.

I am, as I have mentioned before… a work in progress.

I will do it, I have faith.

© bipolarmuse 2012